Little Rock, On the Way Down
[the 15 minute spill]
"Racism is not about bad manners, but a system of privilege, discrimination and brutality embedded in American society and across its institutions that operates to exclude, demean and restrict. It does not need a pointy hood and burning cross to work ...." from article, "George Zimmerman and the American Way," Gary Younge, The Nation, Oct. 7, 2013.
Smokers of course spilled out to be yelled at by bullying driver that he’d told us where to go but hadn’t 1:00 o’clock am October 24, 2013 a few of us but several in line tickets ready ready to board bus so he yells at them too to get inside like an old time white overseer yelling at them without saying anything at all in normal human tone and so with varying looks of confusion the line becomes those several, mostly women who are tired and confused and so very tired of being mistreated going where they can only guess he wants them
But one got inside the bus, I guess what she thought the bully meant by
inside because when I’m back inside myself beside this non-stop talker
This really mean bus driver steps up in the coach to yell out, “Who got on this bus? It was a woman! Who was it? You’re not riding my bus! You’re not riding my bus.”
(Later when I tell Greyhound I forget to mention he thinks it’s
his bus.)
The guy beside me gives me the time: 1:05 am. I write down the bus number.
His bus number, but he’s no badge on vest with his driver number or name. The guy, Tom Something, starts mumbling how the driver has every right to do anything he wants
Only later will I say, “The Klan thought they had the right to lynch people, too, but …”
But by that time the woman behind me has heard enough of my protest since I didn’t do anything at the time, at 1:05 am, either, as none of us did
Because there she is, following him to the front, a young woman, yes; a woman, yes; with gray flannel hoodie covering much of her face but yes, she’s a woman – he knew that – and she doesn’t speak, even now, but is only able to moan a little, following behind him, him yelling the whole time that she’s not going to ride on HIS bus
And then we’re gone, as quickly as these who were in line are let on
And nobody speaks as the wheels start turning
Until, at each stop afterwards, the women do; the men watch; the women say things like, “It was cruel.She ran into the bathroom, crying; she didn’t have any money; it was her first time to ride the bus.
Oh, one young androgyne says, “He couldn’t have done that to me, because I’m military.”
So lovely, this one, but s/he didn’t stand up except to speak in front of these male passenger who listen, during subsequent stops, listen. And always back on, I have to listen to the fat born-again Tom Something. say the driver had every right
And I have to leave that bus number in a book I left on board
But I came off with “Conjectures of a Guilty Bystander” in my mind, and “George Zimmerman and the American Way” in my back pack (Save The Nation)
And the driver’s name, then a number to call, then long days trying to write or call Greyhound so that finally I could tell what he did, and they let me raise my voice in telling it and they let me mention all of what can happen to a young black woman with no money at a locked-up station in dark Little Rock and they let me tell them everything I could, even that I was ashamed of myself and all of us
Or anyway a young woman did, the same young woman who sent me a form letter thanking me for taking time out of my busy schedule to report an abusive driver from Memphis to Dallas
But it’s the American Way, you see.
Nearly three weeks later, I still wonder what happened to this young woman. I still feel guilty that not a one of us stood up for her in time to save her from a lonely and possibly dangerous night and, worse, the knowledge that she can be excluded from a bus ride she paid for, that she can so easily be denied the freedom of movement.
I'm still looking back at "George Zimmerman and the American Way", article by Gary Younge in the October 7, 2013 issue of The Nation. I'm still waiting to get a copy of Thomas Merton's
Conjectures of a Guilty Bystander. My own.
I'm still wondering if Article 13 of the Declaration of Human Rights is applicable to this of what happened in Little Rock on the way down.
